writing again soothes the nerves

In the car yesterday.. yeah, a long 30 (sleepless) hours ago, we discussed..

If I were to have a 'Heroes' power, I would like Matt Parkman's power..
Reading other people's thoughts.

Must be damn insecure lah.. always second-guessing what other people think about me... afraid to know that I'm wrong or someone else is right... damn loser la sometimes

i think i need to read more in order to write. I think i can write well commercially, but I can't blog my ideas in a clean and thoughtful manner... some kind of dread disease

maybe it's cos i'm not reading as much as I used to.. somehow i've become lazy on that. that somehow paralizes my literary abilities... is it the more literature you read, the more you can read into another's mind? 3 good books left to finish... Queen and I (3/4 through), Life of Pi and Vernon God Little..

what's it got to do with reading???

COS i think i know what kind of book i want liao... but i might not be the right reader also.. but fate is cruel almost murderous... wtf... just hoping for a miraculous Christmas this year. It's been years since i've had one. I think have to consult the Boss on this one...


Anyway.. i'm laying off cigs and booze for a week.. this dreaded shanghai flu must leave me.. although it bears the last evidence of my existence there...