Give me Paddles

Savage Garden

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump
I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face they day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump
I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone



Noone to break my fall so please... somebody bring me those damn paddles!

Delicious Mauritius

delicious mauritius:

pineapple juice, coconut milk, banana, aloe

my favourite smoothie from element fresh... oh gawd how I miss tat.. plus a place that could make a decent sandwich

The New Year has brought in many perspectives:

pineapple juice - tropical, laid back but an oxy-moronic clash of flavours and textures...sweet, sour, acidic and cool, as if testing the limits of your taste buds

travelled further west of india for the first time in 3 years

5 countries in a month is quite a record for both work and play.

working out a fair bit, ran more in a month than i did the whole of last year.

coconut milk - reminds you of mum's cooking, a touch of comfort, homeliness and indulgence.

plenty of shopping, carefree spending, retail therapy.

massages, spas

drinks, cigars(and cigarettes) and clubs

at home watching Grey's Anatomy, cooking a simple meal in my apartment

banana - honesty and deliverance beneath that yellow skin. sappy, sticks to the tongue and doesn't go away

how speaking out against injustice does not equate to universal suffrage

that dancing around half-truths and hiding behind untruths can be a manic affair

how that banana skin can slip you in a vital moment

And finally,

aloe - can't imagine that a thorny, unsightly plant can be such a medicinal delight and source of nutrients

seek the unlikeliest sources to heal our wounds

songs and pictures that make you feel warmer and better

My first month of 2008 is a Delicious Mauritius smoothie. I'm savouring the sweetness, acidity, creaminess, sappiness and its therapeutic juice all at once.

I am hungry for more.

RESOLUTE
res·o·lute /ˈrɛzəˌlut/
Spelled Pronunciation[rez-uh-loot]
Pronunciation Key –adjective
1. firmly resolved or determined; set in purpose or opinion.
2. characterized by firmness and determination, as the temper, spirit, actions, etc.


I have decided to become more resolute for 2008 rather than making nonsense resolutions that I cannot keep.

That meaning:
1. succumb less to temptations
2. be more decisive and firm at work
3. control my temper at home
4. be more determined at finishing tasks, especially with the exercising
5. lead a purpose-driven life, closer to Him

Hey isn't that a list of resolutions in itself?

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

My Questions (Top 10)

10. When do you stop searching for something?
9. Why does one turn to smoke and drink?
8. Where do you want to work, live and play?
7. What type of girls would you date? Are they the same type you would marry?
6. How do you know when you've finally cleared the corners of your mind?

5. When do you start looking for something else in your life?
4. Why does one suddenly realise the need to live healthy?
3. Where do you want to stay put and never leave?
2. What kind of women are you with right now?

and my top question...

1. HOW?

writing again soothes the nerves

In the car yesterday.. yeah, a long 30 (sleepless) hours ago, we discussed..

If I were to have a 'Heroes' power, I would like Matt Parkman's power..
Reading other people's thoughts.

Must be damn insecure lah.. always second-guessing what other people think about me... afraid to know that I'm wrong or someone else is right... damn loser la sometimes

i think i need to read more in order to write. I think i can write well commercially, but I can't blog my ideas in a clean and thoughtful manner... some kind of dread disease

maybe it's cos i'm not reading as much as I used to.. somehow i've become lazy on that. that somehow paralizes my literary abilities... is it the more literature you read, the more you can read into another's mind? 3 good books left to finish... Queen and I (3/4 through), Life of Pi and Vernon God Little..

what's it got to do with reading???

COS i think i know what kind of book i want liao... but i might not be the right reader also.. but fate is cruel almost murderous... wtf... just hoping for a miraculous Christmas this year. It's been years since i've had one. I think have to consult the Boss on this one...


Anyway.. i'm laying off cigs and booze for a week.. this dreaded shanghai flu must leave me.. although it bears the last evidence of my existence there...

Time for the monthly bulletin

Johnny Hates Jazz - Turn Back The Clock

Another day is ended
And I still can't sleep
Remembering my yesterdays
I begin to weep
If I could have it over
Live my life again
I wouldn't change a single day
I wish that I could turn back the clock
Bring the wheels of time to a stop
Back to the days when life was so much better
...
Don't let the memories slip away

Lazy Sunday afternoon reminiscing about the past.

July had gone past slowly. A month of change. At the workplace, in another city, another house (albeit my own). Had 2 10 year JC reunions which wasn't as spectacular as I would have hoped but at least there were faces that I have frozen in my memories for the past 10 years.

Shanghai friends have come and gone, with a few more to expect in the month of August. Through them, I have made several new friends that now my social activity revolves around. I am finally exercising, where even painful plantar fasciitis have done little to discouraged me. Drinking less, smoked a grand total of 2 cigarettes for the whole month and just a few kopi-Os.

I still literally dream of the people and activities in Shanghai, especially...
seems really cruel to be put out of a misery only to start feeling miserable! Only that I'm not relying on anything but my own devices to get through.. no alcohol, nicotine or caffeine.. weird ah?

Time to engineer a move back... however, there's just too much to lose now. Practicality over sentiments. I must be resolute. Anyhow, looking forward to October, when I can finally take leave :)

Building People, People Building

I have not written for 2 weeks due to various reasons..
busy saying goodbyes in Shanghai and packing for home
Snuck in a 5 day trip to HK. A fantastic relaxing break for me just doing minimally and getting enough rest. I didn't even buy anything off a shop shelf.

Today is another milestone for me. Started work at the new workplace, where I'm supposed to build my future. Glad that a China colleague dropped in to share stories, realised reality is never too far away. Hope I do get my chance back at Shanghai again cos it wasn't really enjoyable professionally. 2007 has been such a mixed year that it is so hard to give it a report card. The teacher would probably write: Had his moments, but grades could have done better. Better conduct expected next year. Well-liked by classmates but not exactly the most popular boy around.

Well, I have been generally well-behaved... but as with the rest of my life, I'm not the model student. Flaws are apparent! *shrugs*

Nothing much to write about the new work at the moment, just that I will be a one-man team for much of August and September. Just found out that the 2 girls in my team have already tendered! Expecting up to 2 new colleagues. Well, sometimes a fresh start is good but at the same time challenging. I will be spending some time in HCMC/Hanoi so hopefully friends do visit and keep me company. Not so sure about the nightlife though. Heard all nightspots close at midnight. Time to do more reading and writing I guess.

Bedtime!